I realized that I have no reason NOT to blog. I make it seem like the only time I have access to a computer is in the comfort of my own home. I have 3 computers at home, two at work, and my Mac Book Pro is pretty much attached to me at all times. I come to you tonight, from the Waiting Area of the Long Island Rail Road at Penn Station. I didn’t blog because I was too worried. Worried about how many people were reading them. Worried about how candid and open I really could be on the internet without hurting or offending those I love the most. I hate to sound all emo, but shit, all of those things are excuses. I need to just write, release, document. I’m not sure which direction I’m going yet. 5 years after first picking up a camera, I understand a lot more about this medium, but the path I’ve yet to take is still undetermined. I working as Creative Director on a couple of my friends music projects these days. The one thing I advised them to do; I wasn’t doing. I always tell them the key to their success is allowing people into their lives through their music. So, here you’ll get me, candid, unadulterated, honest. Hope you like it!
So apparently I’m okay at this photography stuff. Got an A- in Lighting and an A in my Photoshop course. Am I happy? Fucking elated! Satisfied? Hell no! I know there’s so much more to be done. Each day is step closer to my goal, my vision. I really wished I could have taken another Photoshop course this summer but there wasn’t enough enrollment so the class got canned. One thing I learned to do in my Lighting course was to observe light. As I look outside of this window on the railroad, I admire the mixtures of blues and reds as the sun retreats for the day. Nightfall is soon, the buildings are bright as I kiss them goodnight and head home. This may be the earliest blog I’ve ever done. Signing off for now, my stop is almost here!
It’s where that I take a shower before I go to bed. Tonight is a bit different however. I’m still up at 2:35 in the morning granted, but I was able to piece some ideas, concepts together. This is the part of the night where I can’t sleep and I just troll the internet for useless information. I received a text message earlier in the day from a friend and she explained to me how she loved my blogs, wich are more like mini journals at this point. Nonetheless, I’m inspired, and motivated, just like what my Nike Fuel Band on my dresser does for me. I have all these ideas swirling around, but tomorrow is a new day and I will lay all of these out. Come back and check things I want to try. In the meantime check out my first video for the site, filmed at the DunkxChange in Chelsea Piers.
3 Day Weekends…
I sure could use more time off, but then again don’t we all? Two more weeks until school is back in session, so I’m going to tie up as many loose ends as I can with shoots. I don’t know how, but everything that I’ve been shooting in the past month has prolly been Slowbucks related lol. Dunkxchange, Re-Launch party, shoot, t-shirt samples, youth basketball sponsored by Slowbucks. I guess I’m the one who can’t “keep up” lol. I’m just glad that people want me to work for them because they like the work that I do. It’s a good feeling. On that note, I’ll leave all the negative feelings about the rest of the world and what’s been going on in my head for another time. Good nite.
The Week That Was…
Today wasn’t the greatest day, but I’m still happy that it’s the weekend. First week of 2012 is gone already. I’m just trying to relax for these next couple of weeks before school starts back up. I had a talk with a couple of people about upcoming projects, and I was told I have a silver spoon. You know what, it’s true, maybe I don’t work hard enough, blog enough, shoot enough because I’m content. I watch people with lesser knowledge, and less talent advance. Ironically, as I’m writing this, my boy DJ Dubb City just hits me up for an image that I took this week. So you know what, after this, I’m going to go through my Slowbucks Re-Launch pictures, edit down, and post! Thanks Dubbs for the push, couldn’t have been more timely. Back to work!
I set some New Years Resolutions as well all do. First, lose weight. Second, be nicer to people. Third, improve my sleeping habits. Fourth, blog more, be more social. Here I am at 1:34 AM, just finishing up on a shoot from last week. My diet, well it’s included a lot of cheeseburgers and red meat this far. Being nice, well I’m still trying not to hurt the ones I care about first. Despite all of these missteps, I’m happy. I got an A an a B in my classes last semester. School is a few weeks away, and I’m excited. If all goes well, I’ll be published in The Source twice over, so I’m going to keep my fingers crossed for that. If you read these blogs/journals of mine, I appreciate it. I will continue to just share my thoughts with you all much more often than before. Happy New Year all!
Kashira, this one was for you! Yes I’ll have your images ready soon
Long day today. First off, I want to congratulate my daughter on her entrance into junior high school today. It’s great because she’s going to the same private school that I spent the early part of my life at. I am glad she’ll be getting a good education, with teachers that truly care. I myself just rolled into the house from my class which surprisingly, I am enjoying. I expected my Digital Darkroom course to be boring and just a means to get cheap credits, boy was I wrong! I’m learning basic things that will be super helpful, and will help me further this craft that I have here. I just want to get out there and shoot shoot shoot! Hopefully someone will hit me up and we can have a dope shoot. I’m excited about Fashion Night Out NYC tomorrow, but I think I’m going to skip the festivities so I can go support one of my favorite bands. Pants Velour is a super dope band that I’ve been shooting for a while now, not as a photographer, but as a true fan of their music. They’re performing tomorrow in Billyburg, and I’m excited as a fan, and happy for them as a friend, and pumped as a photographer, because they’ve given me some of my favorite images to date! I’m outtie, catch ya on the flip!
Eyes Wide Shut…
First off, let me just say hello world. It’s been a long hiatus since I last posted a blog. I was partly lazy, partly busy, partly scared, and partly just plain old tired. School finally started today, since Monday’s class was canceled because of “Hurricane” Irene. I’ll try to make this interesting without rambling, so here goes. All of my previous work sucks! Well not really, but it’s not great. For years I’d been afraid to shoot a certain way because I was afraid to fail. No more, after my first day in class, I’m now striving to impress, and the person I want to impress and surprise the most is myself. The reason I’m a photographer is because I want people to see the world through my eyes. My lenses are my eyes, and through them I will give the world my vision. But after today, I realized that my vision hasn’t been clear. Vanessa Velez removed part of what was hindering my sight, and she gave me something to look at, and it’s a whole new world out there. I’m excited, and my creative juices are flowing, which in turn means more shooting, and more writing. Challenge accepted.
I made a promise that I would post after this mini-milestone. My first homework assignment is finished! I feel accomplished, for some reason. I’m not one to celebrate mediocrity but I guess this has some sentimental value to me because I’m actually officially following my dream. It’s been a hell of a week. I began my course at F.I.T. last week, a little discouraged because there’s no digital photography! At least in this course there isn’t. It’s all film…and I figured I don’t “need” film. I wasn’t too concerned about learn about Aristotle in the year 300 and camera obscura. I figured I just needed to know basic technique, and I’ll be on my way with my A thank you very much!
After my first class, I was prepared to drop the (my only) course this semester and just wait it out until summer or fall. But, something told me to stick with it. Maybe it was the words I heard from my dad earlier that morning telling me to “Stay with it”, or maybe I was tired of hearing my own half assed bullshit. Either way, I stayed, and I’m ready to take on the challenge on working my way from the bottom. I’m ready to be a sponge and soak up all the knowledge I can so I can be a better artist for YOU! Eyes are getting heavy…signing off off to bed, 2:34 AM. Long day ahead. G’nite.
Sorry, I haven’t been able to blog for a few days. Been a little hectic with personal issues and school issues. Just when you think you’re getting things in order, life throws you a curveball. I’m just emotionally drained at this point, really in need of a vacation, or a least a body double. I’d have my surrogate step in for a while, so I could just relax and take a load off. But, such is life. If all goes well, I will be attending F.I.T. for a course this Spring. That is probably the most exciting news I’ll receive this week, along with losing three pounds so far. Maybe 5 by the weekend? I’m looking forward to gaining more knowledge and create some new dope things in the upcoming months. Eyes getting heavy as the 3AM mark, so I’ll see ya in a bit.